Firstly, if I was going to kill myself, I would do it in some epic style that no one would ever forget. Probably, I would use a gun in a famous place. If I didn’t have a gun, I’d do like, a quadruple backflip from the 99th floor cocktail bar. Something along those lines.

Nextly, I wouldn’t kill myself, for a number of reasons. I’ve become psychopathically religious, for one. For another, it would be giving a win to Dave Portnoy. The fact that Dave Portnoy (and every other Jew, each of which is exactly like Dave Portnoy) exists actually makes me want to become involved in the transhumanist movement and live forever so no Jew can ever celebrate my death.

Nextly, I honestly wouldn’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings. People shouldn’t give a shit about me, but I understand that people do. And I’ve never wanted to hurt anyone’s feelings, and faking a suicide is a really nasty thing to do.

As a side, I once had a very funny joke about how I had a brain tumor. This was very hilarious. In fact, it might have been a little bit too hilarious, if you catch my drift. It’s so hilarious that there could be times when I need to take time off writing just to laugh about it.

Frankly, I did not expect that one somberish post would lead to widespread rumors of my demise. I didn’t realize everyone was expecting me to kill myself.

I used to be really worried about giving any impression of being depressed or whatever because the Jews could assassinate me and make it look like a suicide. I don’t really care about that anymore, given that, due to AI, it would be so easy to kill me and make it look like I was still alive. So at this point, it doesn’t really bother me to say that no, I’m not having a great time. Again, I wouldn’t ever kill myself regardless, but in terms of posting whiny emo bullshit, yes, that could happen again.

Of course, it’s stupid to talk about not having a good time, because things are tough all over, and everyone has a responsibility to keep their shit together, while no one is ever going to be able to understand what anyone else is going through. So in general, I have a “chin up” philosophy about these things, and think everyone else should have the same. You don’t have any idea what is going on in my head, I don’t have any idea what is going on in your head, the same is true for all of the people on the earth, and we all have the same responsibility to be normal and take responsibility for our own lives. Some people appear to have easier lives than others, but I don’t have any evidence of that. Rich, famous, attractive people kill themselves regularly, probably at a higher rate than ugly poor randos. I’m also not even sure that killing yourself proves anything about your mental state other than that you were sick of whatever it is was going on and didn’t want to deal with it anymore, which could mean a lot of different things.

So I don’t want to whine about my feelings. At the same time, I have been so open about myself and what is going on in my head for so long, I might as well just say what I’ve got going on in my head, especially in light of large numbers of people thinking I killed myself. It’s also worth talking about as it is almost entirely professional in nature. I have my personal and family problems like everyone has, I suppose, but I’ve largely relied on a technique to just block that all out (or at least “black it out,” if you catch my drift), and monomaniacally focus on my agenda.

The agenda is stagnant. As I’ve said, all of this politics stuff bores me. The Donald Trump news situation just feels like endless torture. Like, I already wrote all of this stuff. Now he’s literally going to Palantir you all like a bunch of Palestinians and James Bowman is going to tell Theo Von (with a highly askew face) that it’s about like, illegal immigrants not paying enough taxes.

Asked about Palantir compiling government data, JD Vance says he is more concerned about surveillance via commercial ad data brokers. I don’t know if that will satisfy concerns about Palantir, but he’s right about the data brokers.

The National Geospatial Intelligence Agency… pic.twitter.com/pYlGAlhTDo

— Emily Kopp (@emilyakopp) June 7, 2025

I’m like, “yo, Bowman – on my list of concerns, ‘a biometric control grid where every action every person takes is entered into a database that is funneled into an AI system used to program society and its individual members like a video game’ is a lot higher than ‘wetbacks not giving enough money to the “defense of Israel and free things for niggers and fat people” fund’.”

Apparently, opinions differ on this issue. The thing is, illegal immigrants are not actually going to be paying more taxes because you submitted to an AI control grid designed to micro-manage every aspect of society. So even if you were willing to give up not only all of your freedoms, but your basic ability to exist as a human being in a society in order to get Mexicans to give more money to the Big Beautiful Bill, you still shouldn’t make that deal, because the people trying to make that deal with you are not honest people and they don’t actually care if Mexicans pay taxes.

I suppose I should have started by explaining what Palantir is doing with the Trump administration? But why should I start with that? Shouldn’t people already know that? And if they don’t know it, or if they do, does it really matter? Anyway, basically all of that shit I spent two years writing about – how they were going to use Covid to create a system of biometric monitoring that uses all of the CCTV cameras, your phone, and everything else designed to track you, to monitor all of your behavior, and put it into a massive AI simulation that then allows them to program the behavior of society – turned out to not occur at that time because the selfsame AI simulation system showed that people were going to revolt against it. Now, they’re doing the same thing, and saying it’s about illegal immigrants and Mexican rioters in LA and Islamic extremists and whatever other thing right-wing people supposedly care about. Left-wing people would for the most part support a biometric control grid run by AI because left-wing people will support literally anything if you tell them it is going to create a utopia. But now they have this angle to get right-wing people on-board.

But hey, it’s all just whatever. Because no one really gives a shit. Honestly, I don’t even give a shit. No one else does, so why should I?

Anyway, most retards are not aware of this fact, but all of that “social credit” stuff that the Chinese started to do 15 years ago was totally rolled back and most of it was made illegal under new privacy laws that Xi’s government put through. You can look that up, or not, I don’t really care. You can believe whatever stupid bullshit you want, it’s not my fucking problem. But the reason China decided that using extreme surveillance and combining it with social engineering was a bad idea was not that they are just really moral or whatever, it’s that it was determined to be cancerous for society, and given that the Chinese government is the one running the surveillance and the law enforcement and the prisons, there was no incentive to create social chaos by implementing a dystopian control grid. In America, it’s not just Palantir that has an incentive to implement a control grid, but the private police contractors and weapons suppliers for the police, the private prisons, the NGO groups that support nonwhite crime, and on and on and on forever. Everyone gets rich off of a dystopian control grid.

The claim with China was apparently “they just want to control everyone for no specific reason or maybe they are evil (after all, just look at the shape of their eyes).” This is obviously retarded, and as soon as it became clear that these types of social engineering programs don’t work and will ultimately collapse society, the Chinese stopped virtually all of it. The “social credit system” as it exists now is almost exclusively related to corporations committing various crimes (pollution or scams or whatever). For individuals, it is totally related to financial ratings, similar (though frankly much less extreme and abusive) than the American “credit score.” The only place where there is anything like a Western-style social control grid in China is among the Uyghurs, and you can go read and see if you think that’s reasonable or not. (Virtually all of what the US says China does to the Uyghurs is a lie, of course, but yeah, they are pretty heavily monitored by the government. Again, just go read about it and see if you think that makes sense or if it is done for reasons of pure evil and communism.)

But whereas “China just wants to control everyone to be nasty” is clearly ridiculous to any adult person, the reasons the US and the West generally want to do it are obvious by simply looking at the profit motive. It’s not complicated. Not confusing. It’s not “transparent” in the sense that the media covers it, but it is definitely “transparent” in the general sense of the word. You can just go look up the amount of money all of these companies (Palantir probably now the biggest but by no means the only one) can make off of a control grid.

But here’s what’s scarier than the financial incentive: they also want to control what you think and feel, and they are talking openly about using this biometric AI monitoring and behavior modification grid to modify beliefs. If we go back to China, the government’s goal in terms of social engineering is simply social harmony. In terms of beliefs, they want pro-social beliefs generally, but the only belief they are actually going to try to modify is your belief about the government itself. In general, they try to do that by having the government be a positive entity that people naturally have good views of. But maybe they try to get people to think different things using whatever methods, I don’t know, you can believe that if you want, I certainly can’t prove they don’t do that, I can just say there isn’t any evidence of it. Whatever. I don’t care what you think about China. I’m bringing this up to make the point: how many beliefs do the ruling elite of the United States want to modify and control? It’s a list too long to list, but just look at the Jewish issue.

Now, look at the distance between the current public beliefs on Jews and Israel and the goals for public beliefs on Jews and Israel that a company like Palantir would have.

Now, watch that James Bowman clip again where he’s sweating like Ganesh in a hot spring explaining that he doesn’t really even know much about Palantir or the Trump Administration’s plan for a biometric control grid that uses AI to record and modify all human behavior.

Now, imagine me trying to explain this to people and thinking that me trying to explain this to people is going to do anything good for me or anyone else.

We are so, so far gone.

The only solution to the American situation is a total societal collapse, similar to that of the USSR. Period. There is no other angle here.

The upside is that the more people who think like us that we have in positions of power when the collapse comes, the better. But that’s pretty much the only positive message I’m able to think of.

I might publish a long essay/short book about “freedom” and use the comparison of China and the United States as a means to elaborate on what exactly it is we have going on here. The issue is this control grid and the ability that AI is going to have to manipulate the behavior of hundreds of millions of people. That is the primary issue. And it feels generally ridiculous to talk about it, because most people are incapable of understanding it and if they are capable of understanding it they don’t want to understand it because it is so unpleasant to think about and if they are both capable of and willing to understand it, there is nothing they can do about it, because we live in a democracy where you have no ability to influence government policy and your freedom of speech is dependent on the same corporations building the control grid giving you a right to speak.

So it’s all frustrating.

And I do really thank you all for reading my site and I especially thank those who have donated (which you can still do, by the way). And I am genuinely sorry I didn’t do more and I really feel like I could have done more.

That’s all I meant by the thing.

Suicide note?

Bro, if I write a suicide note, you’re going to know it. And it’s going to say a lot of things which will be very angry and hilarious.

But I’m not going to write a suicide note because I’m not going to kill myself. Well, I might write an “If I was Going to Write a Suicide Note” fake suicide note, like that time OJ Simpson wrote a book about how he would have killed his wife if he had done it.

OJ was totally innocent of course, but he should have killed that nigger-fucking whore Nicole and her Jew. Just so, I’m totally innocent of suicide, but I should kill myself because this shit is all so gay and retarded.

P.S.

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Please help me to take a stand against fed trolls who are claiming this picture was Photoshopped:

That picture is 100% real and unedited, and that is my bedroom.

Feds are all over the internet trying to discredit me by claiming that is Photoshopped, and I would really appreciate it if when you see a fed making this claim, you fight back against him by telling the TRUTH.

I understand you can’t all afford to donate, but it costs nothing to tell a fed kike troll that this photo is 100% real and that is my bedroom where I live and work.