This Donation Drive Makes Me Wanna Blow My Brains Out

Holy shit.

I’ve gotten less than a quarter of what it costs to pay for one month of running the site (while paying myself nothing, by the way – the number includes nothing for my vodka or cigarettes).

What’s more, less than 10% of people who requested addresses sent anything.

Are they just fucking with me?

What’s more: some people hostilely rejected my request to not write a letter and started talking about a PO Box. When I didn’t smash everything in the room, that’s when I realized I’ve truly internalized my stoic-zen philosophy of letting nothing bring rage upon me.

But hey – I sure am glad I’m dying of cancer.

I’m not going to miss anything.

Threats

I’m not going to threaten to shut down the site. Long ago, I realized that we are all totally alone in this universe, and you can only ever really do anything because you think it’s the right thing to do. I’m not going to shut down the site, because I do it for me.

However, “Tor only” is on the menu. The amount of work that has been poured into keeping this site available on the clearnet over the last year has been immense and it has been immensely expensive, and if this is what is going to happen during a donation drive then keeping it there isn’t going to be possible indefinitely.

I seriously thought that when I posted the bitcoin option, people would just send a lot of money. We crossed 5 million monthly uniques in October. If I had ads, I would be making $50,000 a month. This is absurd.

P.S.

Yeah, so this is the address where you can send me an email with the header “ADDRESS” and the text “ADDRESS” and I will send you a unique Bitcoin address:

staunchleftist1999@proton.me

You can then send Bitcoin to that address with some degree of anonymity.

Or don’t.

Honestly, I don’t give a fuck at this point.

I’m sitting here trying to get ChatGPT to tell me foods I can eat to make cancer spread quicker.